FOREWORD
The film "The Queen" has been well received,
in the UK and abroad, both for its acting and its theme. Essie Wise has been
impressed by the thinking behind the film and writes about the issues she
considers particularly important. Terry Skene has been listening carefully
to john Humphreys interviewing religious leaders in an attempt to regain his
lost religious faith and shares with us his reaction to these BBC Radio 4
programmes.
In July we published the first of Arthur
Bruce's articles about his attempt to help a group of orphaned boys in
Bucharest. We continue his reminiscences of an innocent abroad trying to
come to terms with a variety of very complex situations in order to counter
the deprivation and discrimination suffered by these youngsters.
Over the years various writers have
speculated about Robert Burns' religious beliefs and whether or not he might
possibly have been a Unitarian. Certainly in his East Coast travels he may
have encountered Unitarians and he was an admirer of Revd, Thomas Fyshe
Palmer, the Dundee Unitarian Minister, unjustly accused of political
subversion and sentenced to transportation by the tyrannical Pitt
government. Terry Skene has been researching Robert Burns' religious
standpoint.
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"THE QUEEN"
by Essie Wise
"The Queen", written by Peter Morgan,
directed by Stephen Frear and starring Helen Mirren in the title role, is a
fictitious account of the Royal Family's reaction to the death of Princess
Diana in August 1997. Dramatic reconstructions of historical events within a
few years of their occurrence has become a popular TV and movie genre and
the best of them allow the originators to comment seriously upon the moral,
social, political issues raised by the people and events portrayed. "The
Queen" is such a mm, well-balanced, sensitive, perceptive and thoughtful,
which uses the events of August 1997 to present a view about how people
perceive themselves and events in an age of instant and incessant
information and about where the source of moral authority is now located.
There are three protagonist groups: the Queen
and the Royal Family, public Opinion as created and expressed by the Media,
and the Prime Minister of three months standing with his closest advisers.
The issue is the Queen's failure to appreciate that the media's perception
of her role has been changed to accommodate their portrayal of Diana. When
she realises this and finds the role so unsuitable she refuses to perform
it, a power struggle develops between the Royal Family and the tabloid
newspapers while the Prime Minister attempts to arbitrate between them.
Diana was a mega-celebrity, the most visible
woman on the planet and as such the prime property of the world's press and
TV channels. Her every public appearance was illuminated by flashbulbs and
spotlights, her words recorded and relayed to every radio station on earth.
Her whole life, from shy princess to the 'Queen of Hearts', from fairy-tale
wedding, the birth of her children, to her health and marital problems, her
divorce and love-affairs were the very stuff of TV drama and tabloid
headlines. Now, unbelievably, she had made her final exit suddenly,
dramatically and tragically. Throughout the world millions of people were
shocked and plunged into mourning for a person they had never met but with
whom they had lived vicariously and even considered a member of their own
family circle. Having peered with forensic intensity into every nook and
cranny of her biography, the cameras were not to be denied this
unprecedented opportunity of participating in the funeral of the media's
greatest super-star. Television is the medium of the age of equality,
sharing everything in close up, emotion, reaction, behaviour, expression,
its intimate and immediate vigilance, dissolving privacy and distance,
disseminating to the universe whatever might attract its attention. No-one,
therefore, in the whole wide world was to be excluded from these obsequies
for a tragic princess.
Far removed from the media frenzy, the Queen,
in distant Balmoral, was concerned for the welfare of her grandsons, Diana's
children, and felt that the funeral was a Spencer family preserve, and
should be conducted with dignity and restraint. Diana was a private
individual, no longer a member of the Royal Family, and those closest to her
ought to be allowed to mourn her privately, safe from public intrusion. She
was not a media super-star to them but a family member, as vulnerable and
fallible as they, a person with whom they had shared an intimate
relationship which happy at first had become embittered beyond
reconciliation so that the only solution appeared to be total separation.
This view was incomprehensible to the editors of the tabloid press who
claimed that so great was public grief that only a state funeral could
assuage it. A person who had lived so vividly in the public eye deserved a
funeral befitting her media importance and so they set about orchestrating a
campaign to persuade the Queen and the government that to deny Diana a state
funeral would be mean spirited and contrary to the wishes and needs of the
great British public. Pictures appeared of the expanding lake of floral
tributes around Buckingham Palace; tearful women were interviewed,
confessing their sense of loss and wish to participate in a public
expression of mourning; an angry man was filmed pointing at the
decommissioned flagstaff above the Palace demanding a Royal Standard there
at half mast; and editorial voices urging the Queen to appear grieving among
her people on the streets of London.
At this stage an impasse was reached. There
was no precedent for this situation. The Queen wished to adhere to
tradition. The media wished to make the most of its opportunities for
spectacle. The Prime Minister anxious to be seen as the people's politician
for the same reason that he had dubbed Diana' the people's Princess', cannot
find a compromise. Public opinion, therefore, created and fostered by the.
tabloids and TV news channels, must be the arbiter. What the public wants,
or bas been persuaded it wants, the public must have. The monarchy is the
possession of the people and as such bas been annexed by the media moguls.
The Queen must capitulate.
Advised by the Prime Minister that the
monarchy is in jeopardy, The Queen accepts the plan to stage a state
funeral, moves to London and goes 'walk-about' among the crowd surrounding
the Palace gates, while the photographers snap away in a frenzy, and the
television cameras peer under the Queen's hat in search of a tear.
The image-makers get their day in the
Cathedral, the dark suited royals solemnly pictured in the front row, seated
behind them the great and the good of the music and fashion industries,
celebrities and notables, faces familiar from the TV screens and the gossip
columns, all there, under one roof displayed, listening to the tributes,
responding to the ritual, paying homage to the greatest star of them all. A
coup de media, in more senses than one. The film raises questions about
moral relativism in a media age and who speaks for the people. Politicians
measure the popularity of their agendas by the number of votes cast in their
favour. Television channels and newspapers measure the acceptability of
their products by the number of their viewers and readers, upon which their
revenue depends. Media companies pursue policies which will maximise their
audiences, and when accused of invasion of privacy or overstepping the
limits set for them, they claim they are acting 'in the public interest' and
are 'safeguarding democracy' by exercising 'the right of free speech'.
However, pleasing the public, or whatever
section of the public is deemed to be most favourable to their aims,
achieves a higher priority than our traditional ideals of human decency,
integrity, sincerity and truth. Surely satisfying democracy or pursuing the
greatest happiness of the greatest number were never intended to be
independent of generally accepted moral standards? This film, however,
suggests that in the case of the events portrayed, moral authority lay with
the institution with the loudest voice. In a tense and edgy audience at the
end of the film, the Prime Minister tries to congratulate the Queen for
demonstrating royal humility. The Queen, however, suggests it was more a
case of royal humiliation. The implication being that she was bullied into
compliance by the media for their own ends, and that her point of view never
received a fair hearing.
The film leaves the discussion at this point,
but I think there is also a spiritual issue which is never stated but is
implied in the argument. The media have created a cult of celebrities
worship, whereby millions of people engage with life by identifying
themselves closely with the images of personalities regularly appearing on
the TV screens etc. Admiring other people for their achievements or
qualities is a positive thing usually, but worshipping another human being
is in the end a morally stultifying experience, a kind of idolatry.
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VILLAGE MADONNA
By Bill Stephen
Another
hail-shower swept down from the hill, darkened the interior
of the hall, rattled against the windows and enriched the
sound of our applause as Molly O'Brien, leaning heavily on
her grandmother's arm, limped down the aisle between the
stalls towards us on the platform, her face beaming with
excitement and delight. Suddenly, I had a fleeting
impression of a slender figure, sheathed in a long leather
coat, face shadowed by a wide-brimmed hat, striding towards
us from the dimness at the side of the stage. She brushed
passed me, thrust something into my hand, muttered," "Excuse
me. This is mine." seized the star prize, Molly's prize,
from the raffle table, turned on her heel and made off
towards the gloom at the side of the stage. Cassie
Bandeen, pushed me aside, lunged at the figure and grabbed
the fringe of the scarf trailing over her shoulder. The
woman stopped, turned suddenly, tugged her scarf hard from
Cassie's grasp and at the same time pushed her sideways.
Unbalanced, Cassie fell against the card table which
collapsed beneath her weight and spilled her on to the floor
of the hall some three feet below. The applause died. Hail
rattled against the windows. For a few heart-beats, we
were silent and motionless. Then confusion erupted.
''It's
the ghostie wifie!" yelled Joe Ingram, (Ingins) through a
mouthful of girdle scone. She's pinched O'Brien's prize!"
A
group quickly gathered around Cassie, senseless on the
floor. "Get a stretcher!" Ingins and Tyoochers clambered on
to the platform to chase after the intruder.
The Minister
fetched Molly a chair. A red-faced tea-lady brought her
Grand-mother a cup of tea. Bewildered and silent they clung
to each other, marooned in the middle of the room while the
uproar raged around them.
"Where's Dave Flett?" A piercing
voice rose above the racket demanding the village constable.
"He should be here! That woman should be in jail!" The
hall-keeper started blowing his police whistle long before
he reached the main door.
"Doctor Alison. Dr.Alison."
"I'm
on my way." The Doctor handed his tea cup to the tea ladies,
picked up his bag, and, trench coat flapping around his
soaked trouser legs, pushed his way between the tables of
home-baking and bric-a-brac to the group
around his niece. Cassie lay motionless on her back, her
head turned to one side, shrouded by her long, brown hair.
Her left arm was, ominously, tucked awkwardly beneath
her. An elderly woman was trying as gently as possible to
pull her skirt and petticoat down over her knees.
"Aye,
that's fine, Alice, keep the lassie decent, but I need your
help at this end."
"Yes Doctor," said Miss Taggart, the
village Registrar, "but these men, they were looking
at...eh.."
"Just raise her head a little, till I see what's
what." He lifted her eye lids and shone a torch into her
eyes. He straightened up.
"She'll be fine," he said to me,
and patted my arm. "She's had a bit of a knock. That's all."
I raised my hand to wipe my eyes and discovered the pound
notes the 'ghost woman' had given me. I was shaking all
over, terrified, and I felt sick and dizzy. Sobs were rising
up and choking me, The air was heavy with the smell of wet
clothes and fumes from the paraffin stoves set around the
walls.
P.C. Flett and three ARP Wardens arrived with a
stretcher. Cassie began to jerk her head from side to side
.as if trying to shake herself free of something.
I'd first
encountered the 'ghostie wifie' when Cassie took us out
wool-gathering after Sunday school during the summer.
Cassie suddenly shrieked in pain as she tried to use her
left arm. "All right, lass. Ye've had a bit of a tumble.
Just lie still" She moaned and fainted again.
We were up on
the hill, just behind the 'ghost woman's house,' pulling sheeps' wool off the fences and hedges. Cassie told us Mr
Churchill needed it for the war effort. (Cassie was always
doing things for Mr Churchill's war effort, collecting waste
paper, picking rose-hips for rose-hip syrup, organising
concerts and sales-of-work to raise money for bombed-out
families.) It was warm and sunny and the air was sweet with
the scent of rowan blossom. We could see the 'ghost woman'
sitting in front of her summer-house, head bowed, sewing
something on a frame.
"We'll manage, now, Miss Taggart." The
men lifted Cassie on to the stretcher. She moaned. My eyes
smarted and my cheeks were wet with tears. She was white and
limp. Her right arm flopped off the stretcher and dangled,
lifeless. No one moved or spoke as she was
lifted up. Silence had suddenly stilled the uproar. The mood
was sombre. We were still in a state of shock.
Joe Ingram,
bored senseless teasing shreds of wool from barbed wire,
shouted, "Hey, Ghostie Wifie, gie's a chasie!" and hurled a
half-eaten cooking apple as hard as he could into her
garden. The apple exploded on the roof of the summer-house,
showering the woman and her work with tiny fragments of
soft, wet fruit. She leapt to her feet, glared at us and ran
into the house, the noise as she slammed the door echoing
across the hillside like a gun shot.
"She's killed Cassie."
Mollie's shrill voice pierced the silence. As the stretcher
past through the hall she was screeching hysterically, "She
took my prize and she killed Cassie. Cassie's dead." Her
granny, deeply embarrassed, stooped to calm her. A young
woman in a head-scarf thrust a box with pink ribbon into her
hand, but she pushed it away, her face flushed and
tearstained. "She's got my prize," she wept, holding up her
raffle ticket. "It's my prize."
Later that afternoon, the
'ghost woman', Freda Van Gaast, sat in her studio gazing out
on the hillside. Usually, the view lifted her spirits. That
morning, after overnight snow the hill had been a gleaming
white dome set in a crisp, blue sky, but now it was an ugly
lump, under baggy, black clouds. The morning's events had
added insult to the serious injuries she had already endured
and left her feeling battered and humiliated. Her finest work. Her tapestry, that had taken three years of her life,
offered as a prize in a tuppenny raffle. It was unbearable.
Another surge of anger stiffened her body. How could they
even dream that she would donate such a piece to their
jumble sale!
She turned to her tapestry now stretched upon a
frame. She tried to calm herself, to concentrate on her
work. She carefully placed her magnifier over the Virgin's
face and began to examine her eyes. Stitch by stitch, she
inspected her meticulous handiwork, each one perfectly
formed, each identical to its neighbour. The resentment
ebbed slowly, as she admired the sheer skill with which she
had created the halo around the pupil, setting the
highlights like tiny mirrors exactly where they appear on
Botticelli's original. Finding the exact shade for the inner
ring of the iris, a tantalising mixture of olive green and
hazel had taken her months, as indeed had the slate-blue of
the outer ring. She had spent so many hours in front of the
original in the Uffizi Gallery to identify her colours so
that she could reproduce the painter's subtle palette in
shades of silk thread. And these village people were
prepared to give all this away, for tuppence a ticket!
Bitterness flooded her being again. How could they be so
blind! Soulless philistines!
That contemptible policeman who
had all but accused her of assault and theft. He had stood
there dripping in the vestibule, demanding to see 'Mistress Gast'! He'd come taking evidence as he called it, as if she
were a common criminal! She'd committed a breach of the
peace, perhaps. The Procurator fiscal would be informed. How
could she steal her own work? She could claim it had been
stolen from her in the first place! And that she was only
defending herself against that Bandeen girl. That's as may
be but she'd have to make herself available for further
questioning, he said, leaving a pool of muddy water on the
tiled floor.
What a stupid fuss over a simple
misunderstanding. Had they never heard of Dunkirk, up here?
Or the Blitz!
The despair which she had been fighting for
the past few weeks since the destruction and looting of her
London studio now descended upon her like a thick black
hood. She sat with her head in her hands and wept.
Big Ben
was chiming nine o'clock on the radio when Dr Alison arrived
to see Miss Van Gaast. Her Cousin, Alexandra, with whom she
shared the house, took him into the sitting room.
"I'm sorry
to call so late." He paused, but Miss Van Gast remained
silent. "I've just returned from the Aberdeen Infirmary.
It's a ghastly night for driving. It has taken me more than
three hours to get home."
"This is the BBC Home and Forces'
Programme. This is the Nine O'clock News and this is Alvar
Liddell reading it." His resonant baritone was more than a
match for the Doctor's weary voice.
"They've decided to keep
Cassie for a bit. She's had a bad concussion. Her arm's
broken and her shoulder is dislocated. I hope there'll be no
lasting damage. She's set her heart on being a surgeon.
She's under sedation. They'll operate tomorrow."
"Alexandra,
shouldn't you offer your guest a chair?"
"No, thank you,
Alley, I'll be off in a minute. She'll be a bit
uncomfortable for a while, but at seventeen we heal
quickly."
He paused. Alexandra blushed,
tried a smile and fiddled with the door handle. "Well, there
it is. I thought you'd like to know."
"Dr Alison," she
turned off the wireless and looked at him for the first
time. She had her mother's colouring, dark and pale-skinned,
with delicate features, high cheekbones and deep-set eyes
which now gave her face a shadowed, haunted look. Her voice
was dry and tense, as if she was struggling to control
herself. "1 do not, nor have I ever wished your niece any
harm. What happened to her today was caused by her own
impulsiveness and none of my doing. I deeply resent the way
this accident is being laid at my door and how this trifling
misunderstanding has been inflated out of all proportion."
She stood up, motioned him to be silent. "Come upstairs to
the studio. Please."
The room was pitch black. She closed
the door. He could hear her moving about. She pressed a
switch. Suddenly, light splashed against the far wall. The
effect was dramatic, breathtaking. In front of him, set on
an easel, was a needlework picture of a Madonna and Child,
so exquisitely worked that the figures seemed to be reaching
out of the darkness towards him. The colours vibrated in the
intense lamp-light and seemed to flow into the room. The
scarlet, blue and pale gold of the Virgin's gown; the
red-gold of her hair, the bright auburn of the baby's hair,
the soft peach of their skin tones, and blends of colours
that he could not even guess at, so subtly combined were the
interweaving threads.
"An old master?"
"Botticelli's 'Madonna
and Child with Saints'. I omitted the saints."
"You don't
need saints. That lovely, lovely face.. ..it says it all.
Calm, gentle, compassionate, open. It's as. if she were
bestowing a benediction on us all.
He moved closer to the
sampler. "The way you've done the eyes 1 feel they can see
right through me.,... but without judging me...I think I
could tell that woman anything and she'd understand."
"Worth
a tuppeny raffle ticket, d'you think? My Madonna?
Now can you understand my
distress when I arrived' here this morning from London,
after spending eighteen hours on an over-crowded train, to
discover that those village kids had carted it off weeks ago
with the jumble-sale stuff.
"Cassie found it in a
cardboard tube among the bric-a-brac, I believe, so she
promoted it to the raffle. But I must say, in my own
defence, this is the first time I have seen it."
But Freda
was not listening to him
"I was frantic. I'd no idea what
had happened to it until the District Nurse happened to
mention 'my generous raffle prize' when she called to see
Alexandra this morning. Dr. Alison this sampler and my share
of this house are my sole remaining assets. My father's
house in Amsterdam has been commandeered by the Nazis, my
studio and workshop in London were bombed and then
ransacked. All my stock... three half finished commissions...
my threads... my tools... my designs, my templates, my
folios of drawings "Her voice became louder and shriller as
she struggled for breath "..the work of the work of a
lifetime all gone and now I'm being persecuted in my
mother's village over a school kid's raffle ticket."
Her
voice was hoarse with shouting. Her face was a white mask in
the dim light, but he could feel her trembling with anger
and frustration.
"You talk to me about blessings! D' you
know. That tapestry cost me hundreds to make and the convent
that commissioned it is now an S.S. barracks in Silesia and
the nuns are scattered goodness knows where. You people are
living in cloud-cuckoo land! Haven't you noticed the world
is falling apart!"
"Mollie O'Brien's certainly has. Her
grandfather owned 'Q'Brien's Bar' down in the Seatown. About
six months ago, a bomb dropped outside the front door.' The
front of the building was blown out. Mollie's mother, father
and grandfather were killed immediately, her brother died
two days later. Mollie was dug out of the rubble seriously
injured. She eventually got out of hospital about two weeks
ago.
She and her grandmother have
lost everything, as well. Miss Taggart has given them a home
until Christmas, but then her sister is moving in
permanently. After that, . they're homeless again.
Winning the raffle, you see, was a big thing for Mollie."
"Oh, really, Doctor! That's sentimental twaddle," her voice
scornful. "Don't try emotional blackmail, Doctor, it doesn't
suit you. I'm sorry the kid has lost her family, but that
has nothing to do with me."
They stood in silence, looking
at the tapestry, as self-pity started to replace anger in
Freda's heart.
"Why do you people want me to feel guilty?
What am I to feel guilty about? Don't I get any sympathy?
I'm as much a refugee as that eight year-old Mollie of
yours."
The storm was over.
There is great healing in that
picture," said the Doctor. There is so much love and trust
in that woman's eyes."
"What you are seeing, I think, is a
reflection of the artist's humanity."
"Yours?" Asked the
Doctor.
"Sandro Botticelli's. I just copied it. I can't say
I felt it, personally. I'm not in the least religious. What
I see is her vulnerability. She is caught up in something
tremendous. She has just given birth. She has a new life to
care for and has no control over what happens next.
Trust,
or is it an appeal compassion?
I'm not sure. She is so
exposed, you see, to whatever fate has in store for her. The
painter sees her predicament. He is deeply moved by it. The
paint is laid on with such tenderness. The brush strokes are
so gentle, so caressing, so intimate. I think he was almost
afraid to touch her."
Her voice was soft, now, low, almost a
whisper. For a few seconds she was back in the Uffizi, in
front of the original, lost in admiration.
The Doctor kept
silent while she enjoyed her reverie, but noted the change
in her mood. At last, moved by her sincerity, he said, "Why
don't you exhibit your Madonna in the village? After all, we never saw her
properly, stuck up on the stage there, in that half light.
This tapestry of yours has great spiritual qualities and
folk will respond to it. They will appreciate it, I'm sure.
They're not as insensitive as you think. And wouldn't it be
a good thing if some of them at least were to see in the
tenderness of your work a reflection of their sympathy for
Mollie O'Brien.?"
"My vulnerability, Doctor, is protected by
a thick layer of cynicism. I'm not ready to trust you and
your villagers just yet." With that, she plunged the room
into darkness again and left.
That night, after Alexandra
had gone to bed, Freda, tired as she was, returned to her
studio, opened the curtains and looked out towards the hill,
now indistinguishable from the blackness of the night.
The
Doctor's remarks about Mollie O'Brien had affected her
deeply. They had apparently a great deal in common, both
innocent victims of the war. While she had felt sorry for
herself, she had felt no up-rush of compassion for Mollie.
Ever since she had tried to be a creative artist she had
encountered a kind of emotional barrier that confined her
feelings to herself. Desperate as she was to reach out and
feel part of the world, to care for people and things enough
to see what was unique about them, so that she could feel
uplifted by them, inspired by them enough to form her own
original vision of life, she could never get beyond her
preoccupation with self. She had settled for a second hand
vision of life as a copyist. All her samplers, exquisite as
they were, were copies of the great masters' work and drew
their power from these originals. She could only mirror
other people's visions. To create, one must love, as
Botticelli must have loved his Madonna, with a selfless
compassion. She couldn't do that. She couldn't expose
herself in that way. Love made one vulnerable and so far she
had not been able to take that risk.
A star appeared in the
corner of the window. The outline of the hill began to
emerge from its back-ground, and then the window panes were
crowded with stars. As she watched the sky clear an idea
began to form in her mind, a new excitement was tingling
like electricity, deep in her being. Having whispered,
"Thank you," to the Madonna, she went to her desk, drew out
her drawing board and started to create. The mirror had
cracked from side to side. She had made a commitment.
Seven
weeks later, Christmas week was upon us at last, and snow
covered the streets, out-lined the window sills, cornices
and chimney pots, capped pillar-boxes and telephone kiosks,
and clad bus-stops and lamp-posts in an icy sheath.
Once
again we were in the town hall now smelling deliciously of
the forest. The walls were decorated with fir and pine
branches and holly wreathes. At the back of the platform was
a tall Christmas tree set in a broad wooden tub, painted in
green and red stripes, each one adorned with a silver star.
Crepe-paper streamers decorated the upper part of the tree
and from the lower branches dangled red, gold and silver
stars cut from card board and painted.
Seated at the piano
at the window side of the platform, was Mr Taggart, the
school headmaster thumping out the tunes, and standing
centre, still looking pale after four weeks in hospital and
wearing a sling, was our Cassie, conducting her Christmas
Carol concert. Muffled in coats, scarves, hats and gloves we
had exulted with the angels, watched with the shepherds,
knelt at the manger with Mary and Joseph, joined the Wise
Men bearing gifts, and carried logs through the snow with
good King Wenceslas, and just as the afternoon sun was
pouring volumes of rose-red light into the hall, a Boy Scout
bugler leapt on to the stage and delivered a triumphant
fanfare to welcome the village Madonna. Mounted as a banner
and carried aloft by Ingins and Tyoochers (who else) the
'ghost wifie's' sampler was paraded down the central aisle
to the platform where it was set up for all to see.
Following them, much more
slowly, still lame but smiling proudly came Mollie O'Brien,
carrying, back to front, what appeared to be an oval picture
frame. Reaching the end of the aisle, she stood between the
boys supporting the Madonna and showed us the front of her
picture. It was another sampler, but this time portraying
the features of Mollie O'Brien, as the goddess of Spring,
wearing a circlet of daisies and primroses in her hair.
As
Mollie lifted up her portrait above her head, a great surge
of applause engulfed the hall and the people at the back
stood on the wooden forms to get a better view. Happiness
shone from every face. Suddenly, the audience caught its
breath, the applause stuttered into silence, as from out of
the shadows at the side of the stage came a figure in a long
leather coat, and wearing a broad-brimmed hat. Cassie ran
across the stage, brought the figure to the centre, where
she and Freda Van Gaast, shook hands and embraced each
other. The pianist hammered out "For they are jolly good
fellows". Some of us sang, some of us clapped and Ingins
turned cartwheels across the front of the stage. (Perhaps,
Cassie had staged managed that as well.) The Madonna floated
over our rejoicing, her eyes calm and compassionate, like a
benediction.. ..
Mollie and her grandmother moved into the
'ghost house' that Christmas and lived there at least until
the war ended. As far as I know they never returned to the Seatown.
Freda seems to have left the village just before
the fall of Hitler, presumably taking her Madonna with her.
The following Spring, Mollie was well enough to return to
school and one day she brought her sampler to class. Freda
had done a lot more work on it over the winter. Now,
'Mollie' wore a heart-shaped pendant on which were
embroidered in microscopic stitching, the letters 'S.B'.
Mollie said they stood for "Sandra." She couldn't pronounce
his second name but he was "a great healer."
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THE INVISIBLE & INDEFINABLE GOD
by Terence Skene
John Humphrys, the
Inquisitor-in-Chief of the BBC Radio Four "Today" programme,
has recently felt the need to hew a path through all the
many obstacles that stand between him and a belief in God.
As a child he was brought up in a conventional Church of
England household, was christened, confirmed and believed
without question all he was told about the existence and
power of God. However, as he became more familiar with the
ways of the world and of human nature, its wanton crue1ty,
its selfishness, its ability to inflict unnecessary
suffering upon the innocent and weak, his belief in a God of
love and compassion ebbed away, and now as a mature adult
finds himself without any religious faith whatsoever. This
is not a condition he welcomes, and now at the age of sixty
three he would like to rediscover the faith he had as a
child. He has observed that sincerely religious people get a
great deal of satisfaction from their faith and he wishes to
share in that satisfaction. He is also deeply troubled by
the state of the world and desperately wishes to fmd an
answer to 'man's inhumanity to man'. He, therefore, invited
three mentors to conduct him on a search for God, Dr. Rowan
Williams, Archbishop of Canterbury, Professor Tariq Ramadan,
Moslem scholar, and Sir Jonathan Sacks, Chief Rabbi.
Their conversations, each lasting 30 minutes were broadcast
on Radio Four at weekly intervals starting with the
Archbishop of Canterbury on 31/10/06. These are very erudite
men, blessed with clever and subtle minds, rational in their
attitudes, aware of the most recent thinking in their
sphere, and in addition to being religious leaders of their
respective Faiths, by virtue of their position, expert
politicians. They seemed wary of John Humphrys' project, not
because of his reputation for pugnacity~ but because each
has a constituency of his own which would doubtlessly be
listening critically to every word.
None of these learned gentlemen, for instance was prepared
to be specific about the nature of God. Professor Tariq
Ramadan, the Moslem leader, claimed all that could be known
was the oneness of God. The Archbishop of Canterbury said
that he was committed to the reality of -God and he had a
developing relationship with God, and tried to accept what
God gave him, but would not say if there was such a thing as
a God in any simple sense. The Chief Rabbi also talked about
a human/God partnership and thought God to be a human
universal and that if people don't believe in God they
worship other things such a fascism or racism or an
economic or political system and eventually arrive at
idolatry which ends in bloodshed.
The method employed was the political interview at which
Humphrys excels, whereby the evasions, inconsistencies,
duplicities, inaccuracies, irrationalities of the politician
are exposed by persistent interrogation. In these God,
interviews, however, it is the misconceptions of the
interviewer that are unearthed. Humphrys complains right at
the start, that their roles have been reversed and that the
Archbishop is interviewing him.
When asked what kind of a God it is that he no longer
believes in and what had destroyed that belief, Humphrys
replied that it was the notion of a supreme being, the
creator, the supreme moral conscience, and he could not
reconcile this belief with the unending, universal human
suffering that he witnessed every day of his life. How could
a God of Love permit such things to happen?
The Archbishop then patiently explained the 'free-will'
defence. God has made a universe in which conscious beings
emerge who make their own decisions, who possess free will'
and therefore are morally responsible. We do not live in
isolation and therefore our actions are bound to impinge
upon other people. Should God step in at some point when
there is a risk that our actions might injure some one else,
slightly or moderately or seriously or mortally? When should
God step in and if he were to, would there still be such a
thing as free-will? Clearly God does not interfere directly
with free will. Do we, nevertheless, require God to
intervene at some point in an individual's suffering in
order to protect his good name? What God does, and has the
whole of eternity in which to do to do it, is to offer
healing, and some of that healing may come from other human
beings. Unspeakable suffering is a fact of life and it is
very, very hard indeed, to live with the experience and
knowledge of it, and for some people, there may be no
healing on this earth, but Faith encourages us to believe in
God's perspective, in God's time, healing will occur.
Sir Jonathan Sacks also regards human beings as the cause of
suffering and as far as possible, also as the healers of
that suffering. He says God challenges humankind not to
accept suffering as the will of God but to struggle against
it, to feed the hungry, heal the sick, tend the injured
comfort the bereaved and so on. God was even in Auschwitz,
he claims, in the commandment 'Thou shalt not kill', in the
words, 'thou shalt not oppress the stranger' and in 'your
brother's blood cries to me from the ground', however, the
German people did not listen. Humankind bears the
responsibility of the holocaust, not God. He claims that God
created a physical world in which random events occur which
were not intended or planned by God. These events may cause
great suffering. It is up to humankind to do its utmost to
prevent or relieve them. To blame God for disasters is not a
positive or helpful attitude. Blame is what made us lose
paradise, that's the message from the Garden of Eden.
Professor Tariq Ramadan cannot explain suffering. It exists
in the world. Humankind should do what it can to ameliorate
suffering but there also has to be a realisation that no
matter how much is done, it will never be enough. Humphrys
then suggests that the free will argument excludes the
possibility of God ever intervening in human affairs and
that makes prayer pointless. The Archbishop replied that
freedom is the image of God in us and that therefore
exercising our freedom in prayer can allow something of
God's action to enter human life by working through our
freedom. rather than by usurping it. This is why he prays,
. because he believes that somehow he may make a channel for
God's action to come through and help with a particular
situation. God has set up conditions in such a way that such
an occurrence is possible.
The Chief Rabbi also believes in the importance of prayer.
He hears a voice within him which is also a voice from
beyond and he converses with this voice. He believes that
God listens to what he has to say and in time and in his own
way, responds.
Tbe obstacles set up by Humphrey's were demolished, one by
one, such as religious wars, the interpretation of the Koran
and Sharia law, but he was left complaining in the end that
he had still not regained his childhood faith. He complained
that the gift of faith, enjoyed by his mentors had been
denied him, The Archbishop explained that he needs to be
aware of God's love for him, but Humphrys claimed that be
cannot entertain such a feeling because he does not believe
in the existence of God in the first place. The Archbishop
can only repeat that the gift of God is there available to
him and that there is no predestined plot to exclude
Humphrys from belief in God. Ultimately, it is his own
responsibility. He can only hope and pray that sooner or
later Humphrys will become aware of God's love for him.
About his eternal destination, his mentors are reluctant to
commit themselves apart from saying, reassuringly that there
is always hope. After all, no human being is privy to the
mind of God. Rowan Williams adds that only God can judge why
a person may be resistant to him, but the wish to believe,
the willingness to believe, is a good sign.
In the end the general listener is left with the conclusion
that it is all a matter of faith, and that for most people
that faith has to be worked at. The responsibility lies
squarely on the shoulders of the person concerned. One
enters into a relationship with God, strives to develop it
and in time attain a kind of certainty that there is a God.
There are no quick fixes. There is no sudden awareness of
conviction, no instant illumination, just slog, slog, slog.
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THE RELIGION OF BURNS
by Terence Skene
"Man is born free and is everywhere in chains". This is the
opening sentence of "The Social Contract" by Jean-Jacques Rousseau and the
work which inspired the American Declaration of Independence, gave some
philosophical credence to the French Revolutionaries, stimulated the great
English Radical Tom Paine, and found a warm welcome in the heart of Robert
Burns who spent a lifetime dedicated to the cause of freedom. In 1787 he
celebrated National Freedom in his song "Scots Wha Hae" adding two more
verses in 1793 directed at the tyrannical policies of the Pitt government:
Lay the proud usurper low!
Tyrants fall in every foe!
Liberty's in every blow!
Let us do or die.
And in the last year of his life he produced his
revolutionary agenda for the emancipation of humankind in his great hymn to
human dignity, "A Man's a Man", sentiments familiar:. to. Rousseau and Tom
Paine:
The rank is but the guinea's stamp
The man's the gowd for a that.
The honest man tho' ne'er sae poor
Is king o men for a that.
Ye see yon birkie ca'ad a lord,
Wha struts and stares an a that;
The man 0 independent mind,
He looks and laughs at a that.
The pith o sense an pride o worth
Are higher rank than a that.
And then we have that incredible vision of a world-wide
republic where serious minded, honest people settle the affairs of human
kind fairly and intelligently:
When man tae man the world o'er
Shall brithers be for a that.
What you may ask has this to do with Robert Burns' spiritual
beliefs and I would have to reply that composing these lines and his mature
love songs may have been Ills greatest spiritual achievement and may have
given him his greatest sense of fulfilment. Apart from that I would have to
admit that although he wrote a great deal about the Church, he said so
little about his own spiritual beliefs that it is quite impossible to say
what he believed. God is scarcely mentioned in his work, and when he is,
appears as a remote, unknowable entity who takes no interest in the affairs
of humankind. Jesus appears as the epitome of all that is good.
Robert Burns' spiritual development is hampered by the
religious climate of his time, which turns him against organised religion.
An artist requires independence and energy. A mind free of
an restraints and a voice free to express whatever the creative spirit
produces are necessary to bring original work into being. Energy to drive
the creative process comes from the artist's strongest feelings or
passionately held convictions. Freedom of thought and expression was
severely repressed in the Ayrshire of Burns' lifetime.
Scottish culture in the 18th.century was dominated by the
Kirk of Scotland which subscribed to a particularly bleak, authoritarian,
repressive and unforgiving form of Calvinism. An national institutions,
including the law, education and administration were subject to the dogma of
the Presbyterian kirk. At parish level, the Minister and his elders acted as
a moral and religious police force, officiously interfering in the private
lives of the local residents, imposing their narrow-minded standards upon
everyone. No infringement of their code was too petty for them to overlook.
When Gavin Hamilton was arraigned before the Church Court for missing public
worship on five consecutive occasions, Ills accuser, William Fisher, added
for good measure the allegations that Hamilton had also attended a dancing
party, a card party and had been heard to swear.
The Church Court had the power to humiliate their victims
before their family, friends and neighbours in Church, fine them and even
banish them from the parish. Robert Burns suffered at their hands in this
way on more than one occasion for fathering illegitimate children.
It was an arid, legalistic culture in which, accusation,
blame, punishment were principal features and in which suspicion, fear and
social discrimination were the consequences. It was also a very obsessive
and divisive culture. Scottish Calvinism adhered strictly to the doctrine of
the elect, the belief that only one person in ten would be permitted to
enter paradise. Everyone else was destined to spend eternity in Hell,
because Adam and Eve had been banished from Paradise for disobedience and
this original sin was transmitted down through the ages to every man woman
and child, as was the punishment. As . . a Holy Willie explains:
0 Thou that in the Heavens doth dwell,
Wha, as it -pleases best thysel',
Sends ane to heaven an ten tae hell,
A for thy glory, And no for ony hairm or ill,
They've done afore thee.
However, to show his compassionate and forgiving nature - at
least to a limited extent- God permitted one tenth of humanity to spend
eternity with him. The lucky few thus selected, were called the elect and it
was important to people to discover whether or not they belonged to this
group. Honest folk meticulously examined their consciences, endlessly
questioned their own motives and agonised over the strength of their faith,
seeking some clue as to God's destiny for them. The less scrupulous, like
Willie Fisher, the arch hypocrite simply declared themselves to be one of
the elect on little or no evidence at all and exploited the social
superiority this accorded them.
Such a culture, then, could offer Robert Burns nothing but
frustration and antagonism, and in self-defence he attacked it viciously in
a series of satirical poems exposing its tyranny, hypocrisy, superstition,
triteness, arrogance and complacency. His anger generated the energy; his
independent, forensic mind identified the targets; and his ready wit moulded
the verbal ammunition. In Poems such as '"Address to the Unco Guid", ""The
Holy Fair", "The Kirk's Alarm" ,"The Twa Herds or The Holy Tulyie" and the
"Ordination" he lambasts the conservative Auld Licht ministers, in very
frank and colourful language, claiming they are vindictive, punitive,
self-righteous sadists who hold the community in a state of terror.
Mockery, he finds is his most effective weapon, as used for
instance in his "Address to the Deil". Satan is an important character in
Calvinist doctrine. He and God are constantly at odds over the control of
the universe. Satan attacks God through humanity, entrapping human souls to
increase God's discomfiture. Ministers warn their flock that Satan is
everywhere ready to snatch them down to Hell. The smallest fall from grace;
the slightest infringement of the moral code, even a single improper thought
is enough to to allow Satan vacant possession of the human soul. Many of
these ministers believed that Hell was a geographical location, where indeed
people were were eternally burned but never consumed in a pit of flaming
sulphur and brimstone.
Burns loved to shock people with his impudence and audacity.
His "Address to the Deil" one of his satirical masterpieces, was considered
to be so outrageous in certain quarters that he had endangered his mortal
soul by writing it. He had put himself in Satan's way, and a good thing too!
He makes fun of Satan, treating him like a pet animal,
addressing him by various familiar titles, such as "Auld Hangie, Auld Hornie,
Nick, Clootie Auld Cloots and Nickie Ben, implying they are great pals and
that Satan will do whatever, the poet asks of him. In the end he suggests
that Satan does little more than jump out from behind a hedge and shout
"boo!" He is no more than a figment of the preacher's imagination and not
something to be taken seriously by any responsible adult.
All this was highly entertaining or highly libellous
according to your point of view. Burns took care not to sign these poems but
had them published as anonymous pamphlets, otherwise we would have landed in
jail. They all show that he viewed organised religion in a completely
negative light. It had no spiritual value whatsoever. He resented its
hostility towards him and made it a target for his wit. In the process he
created the two finest satirical poems ever written in any language, "Holy
Willie's Prayer and "Tarn '<) Shauter"
Holy WiIlie condemns himself out of his own mouth, showing
himself to be corrupt, hypocritical, greedy, lustful and dishonest, indeed
guilty of most if not all of the seven deadly sins, while convinced that he
is one of the elect and on intimate terms with God, a God of wrath and
vengeance and open to flattery.
While the "Holy Willie" poem is a parody of a prayer, "Tam 0
Shanter" 'is a parody of a sermon, the point of which is to warn us against
the evils of strong drink and loose women. Tam is a crofter who drinks to
excess on market days and who is, therefore, vulnerable to an attack from
the Devil. It was only a matter of time, as his good wife, Kate, a staunch
Auld Licht Calvinist, warned him before he would be found deep drowned in
Doon or catched wi warlocks in the mirk, by Alloway's auld haunted Kirk. As
predicted, one stormy January night, "The wind blew as twad blawn its last"
Tam, indeed, comes face to face with the Devil.
As he approaches Kirk Alloway, flaring torches light up the
midnight sky. The skirl of the bagpipes, and the sound of raucous voices
yelling and shouting subdue the storm. It's a Scottish Country Dance for
warlocks and witches, and the music - if it can be called that - is provided
by Satan, dressed in his party gear, as a large, black dog.
"A winnock bunker in the east,
Sat auld Nick, in shape 0 beast;
A tousie tyke, black, glim and large,
To gie them music was his charge,
He screwd the pipes and garf them skirl
Till roof and rafters a did dirl."
A more ludicrous sight it is difficult to imagine than the
Devil portrayed as a Scottie dog, standing on its hind legs, playing the
bagpipes! A more outrageous setting for him, the east end of the church, the
sacristy, could not be found and one which was bound to provoke the wrath of
the unco guid. In a few lines, the poet makes a laughing stock of the devil
and for good measure heaps indignities upon the Auld Licht Ministers and
their like, by turning the preaching end of the kirk into a bandstand for
Satan himself.
But he is not finished yet. Tarn has to get his just deserts
if the formula is followed. Punishment follows sin as night the day, says
the holy rubric and so Tarn must suffer some hellish doom. Unable to
restrain his admiration for the antics of Nannie, a scantily clad, teenaged'
witch, Tarn shouts out, "Weel done cutty sark," "And in an instant a was
dark"
Lust is his undoing. Now Satan will collar his soul.
Led by the athletic Nannie, witches and warlocks tumble out
of the Kirk in pursuit of Tarn. He urges his old horse, Maggie, into a
gallop and they career towards the Brig 0 Doon as witches cannot cross
running water.
"Ah Tarn, Ah Tarn, thou'll get thy fairing
In Hell they'll roast ye like a herrin!"
But not yet! Not yet! Says the poet. Maggie leaps for the
bridge just as Nannie makes a grab at Tarn. She misses Tarn, just, but wins
a handful of hair from Maggie's tail Not enough to stuff a cushion. Satan
reached for a human soul and caught the whisk of a horse's tail.
So much Satanic effort expended, so little moral instruction
achieved. However, disappointing as the episode was a sermon must
conclude with an appropriate warning.
Now wha this tale 0 truth shall read,
Ilk man and mither's son tak heed:
When todrink ye are inclined,
Or cutty sarks rin in your mind,
Think, you may buy the joys ower dear,
Remember Tam 0' Shanter's mear.
A crashing anti-climax, of course, as Burns laughs
uproariously at attempts by the conservatives to frighten people into being
good by threatening them with the devil and hell.
A wonderful comic poem you, might think, the best ever
written, but its satirical point is surely irrelevant to our secular world
today you might think.
Earlier this year, I heard an American fundamentalist
preacher, explaining to Professor Richard Dawkins that his church spends
millions of dollars every year combating sin and that their preferred
instrument of persuasion is fear... fear of the devil... fear of hell. He
reckons that by frightening people, particularly when they are young, he can
save them from a life of sin. I doubt if they have Burns Suppers in His
Church.. More likely burning suppers. Holy Willie, the Rev. William Auld of
Mauchline Parish. The Auld licht ministers, and Satan are all alive and well
and living in America. More than two hundred years on, and nothing has
changed. The meR who wrote the American Declaration of Independence, John
Adams, Benjamin Franklin and Thomas Jefferson, would be outraged, if they
knew!
Burns' anti Kirk poems, brilliant satires as they are, show
religion in a negative light and in the end are not spiritually fulfilling
for the poet. Transcendence has been imprisoned by the Kirk. and there is no
other way through to it. In the end he gets bored with religion. Anger
subsides; energy flags and he decides to concentrate on this world rather
than the spiritual one. He finds salvation in nature and the richness of
life around him. The musical and poetic traditions of Scotland inspired him
to collect old tunes and half-forgotten songs and at the same time he
composed the finest collection of lyrics every written, more than 360 songs,
portraying the thoughts, feelings, hopes and fears of himself, his friends
and neighbours, in language which at its best expresses pure emotion,
reaches far above the commonplace and touches the transcendent.
Had we never lov'd sae kindly'
Had we never lov'd sae blindly!
Never met - or never paried,
We had ne'er been broken hearted.
This poem is a whole universe removed from the determinism
of Calvinism. This is about chance, Two people meet by pure chance. They
fall in love, by chance. Unforeseeable circumstances drive them apart, but
leaving intact a whole world of what might have been. This is the real
complexity of human life; existence shaped by chance; hopes and dreams
surviving as might-have-beens although never fulfilled[ men and women coping
with fate and the unexpected as best they can. There is a profundity and
understanding in this song that the simple black and white model of
existence taught by the Calvinists can never match.
Oh wert thou in the cauld blast,
On yonder lea, on yonder lea;
My plaidie to the angry airt
I'd shelter thee, I'd shelter thee:
Or did misfortunes bitter storms
Around thee blaw, around thee blaw,
Thy bield should be my bosom
To share it a'. to share it a'
In this song we have the complete commitment of one person
to another. There is no holding back; there are no reservations or
conditions. We know the speaker is sincere in his avowal. He will share his
coat; he will share the pain, suffering and misfortune; he will sacrifice
himself for the salvation of the other. Could any Christian do more?
Here sympathy for another, love for another becomes
transcendent and yet it all emerges from ordinary human beings sharing a
typical bum an relationship. Human goodness is without limit.
Robert Burns believes in life and the freedom to live that
life, fully with dignity and pride. He believes in humanity and the capacity
of men and women to rise above their circumstances and exhibit the nobility
and vision that is the crowning glory of our species.
I think this is his religion. And this is his creed in which
he places his complete faith.
Then let us pray that come it may,
As come it will for a that.
That sense and worth o' er a the earth,
Shall bear the gree, an a that,
For a that and a that
It's coming yet for aa that
That man to man the world o'er
Shall brithers be for a that.
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THE SPIRIT OF ROMANIA
(Past, Present & Future)
by Arthur W.Bruce
I hope the reader is not expecting a serious historical
account of Romania. I simply chose the light-hearted (seasonal?) title to
cover the extremely difficult task I've been set. Perhaps also because I
don't think it was merely chance that brought to light my copy of the St.
Nicholas icon which accompanies this issue. The difficulty I refer to is the
fact that, following my previous article, I am --' attempting to condense 13
years of facts (and an unknown future number) into one article. I didn't
know whether to seek help from one of the soup manufacturers or the
publishers of "condensed works"! Since neither seemed particularly
appropriate, I shall simply do my best to keep the true flavours and
richness of the original experiences whilst removing some of the
inessentials!
I returned from my first visit with the feeling that I was
living in an emotional battleground - and not at all sure that I would
survive. The fact that I am writing this proves that I did - but not without
some close calls! For example, I had great difficulty in accepting the
behaviour of the pupils in Robert Gordon's college ,,,,here I was teaching.
Even as a former pupil, I was still very disturbed by their disgruntled,
demanding, materialistic attitudes. My behaviour was obviously causing
concern among my friends and family, and one day a friend said "Arthur, this
is getting out of band...when you talk about the Romanian kids you keep
saying it's not their fault...WELL STOP AND THINK...it's not the fault of
our kids either! It's US and our SOCIETY who are responsible. Just put it in
perspective, PLEASE!" When I mentioned tbis to my wife, Jessie, she just
said "Oh I see, you've wakened up. I've been trying to tell you for long
enough but you just wouldn't listen!!" (Mea culpa!!)
Having spent many years
doing concerts and busking for various charities, I then concentrated on the
needs of my friends in the orphanage. By chance (?), in August the next year
('94) I met a charming group of young Romanian dancers/musicians at an
International Youth festival with which I'd been involved for many years.
Three of the "backing group" were older, and Gigi (the Accordeonist Leader)
& his wife Daniela (a Doctor) became good friends, and invited me to visit
them on my next trip to Bucharest. By a strange coincidence they link with the Orphanage and also highlight the extremes
and great complexities of the emotions with which Romania has bombarded me!
There is also an interesting link to my recent visit ...and possible future
activities? ... but more of that later!
I have a friend, a teacher of R.E.
who lives in Aberdeen, who has been involved with a Romanian Charity for
many years. He had given me contact details for friends in Bucharest, so on
my next visit I was armed with addresses for TWO families.
One Saturday
morning I set off with Paul & Andrei (2 of the boys who played in the
Mandolin Group) to find Daniela & Gigi. When we found the bloc & scata
(building & stairway) they said "We'll wait here for you" - and it was with
great reluctance that they entered the building! Gigi welcomed me in his
hesitant English (he has a good knowledge of French which we've used on
occasions) and escorted us into the living room, where he announced that
Daniela hadn't been well and was taking advantage of the fact that it was
Saturday to have some rest. He let Daniela know we'd arrived and offered the
boys some coke and myself a beer. When Daniela came through with her
daughter Simona we chatted politely and then she put a strange look on her
face and moved a little closer saying" Arthur there's something I must tell
you". Although she was keeping her voice low, and Gigi was conversing with
the boys, they were certainly within earshot, so I was taken aback by her
statement." Arthur, you are welcome any time, possibly even to stay for a
short time - but please, you must NEVER bring any boys from the orphanage,
it's not safe!" I tried not to be rude...but made a fairly quick exit after
that shock.
I was pretty sure the boys had heard, and when we got outside
they said, "You see, Arthur, we did try to tell you earlier, didn't we?" I
felt so upset! On one hand was this well educated woman, whom I thought I
knew, behaving with such prejudice; whilst on the other hand there were two young boys, whom I considered to be close friends, being insulted (and
regarded as potential criminals) because I hadn't listened to them earlier.........!
The next day was slightly embarrassing, since the boys knew
that I had intended seeking out Nicoleta & Dan. They INSISTED (in spite of
their experience) that they would NOT let me go alone! So, Sunday saw the
dauntless trio set off! To this day I cannot explain why, when we found the
apartment, they didn't even hesitate ... all three of us were standing at
the door as I rang the bell?! That was only the start of a day (and a
future) of strange happenings!
The door was opened by a young lady who
almost "smothered" me on hearing the magic word "Hector". In what seemed
like seconds we were seated in the living room; the boys with coke and
myself enjoying a coffee (having learned by then never to tip it back or stir
up the sludge at the bottom of the cup!) The young lady said "Mama will be
back very soon - she'll get a big surprise and be very happy to meet you".
It transpired that she was Oana, the younger daughter of Nicoleta. Dan was
her step father ( Nicoleta having divorced her first husband who had been a
member of the Securitate). Sure enough, on her return, Nicoleta was
indescribably excited!
Before we could blink we were ordered (not asked) to
stay for a meal! The conversation was almost entirely in English, since Nicoleta, Oana, Paul & Andrei each had a great knowledge of the language,
whilst Dan's limited knowledge matched my efforts in Romanian. Nicoleta
tried to persuade me to stay a few nights. I explained that although I
couldn't simply not go back to the Casa, I would arrange to come back later
for a couple of nights. Whilst saying our "la revedere"s I saw Nicoleta hand
the boys a small piece of paper ( which I had not noticed her writing). She
said "That's our telephone number, and you already know where we live.
Please call or visit any at time especially if you are having problems".
Suddenly, I couldn't see or speak, and simply collapsed into her arms. After
our earlier experience, here was someone welcoming a complete stranger
(albeit a friend of a friend) AND opening her home to these two orphans!!! I
still have great difficulty in keeping control of my emotions every time I
even mention it!
Many of my later visits were spent in part or total at Nicoleta's. Strangely, her father and I became very good friends (despite
the fact that he had not one word of English). Coincidentally he was a
retired Croitorie (Tailor) and my G.G. Grandfather (who had spent
his later years living with us) was a retired Master Tailor! Although he was
known to one and all as TaTa Burcea (Father B), I was one of the few
privileged to use his Christian name, Marian. At one point he was another of
the successful healings which it was my honour to experience (including Dan
& Nicoleta) outwith the Orphanage and in this country. Ta Ta Burcea had only
one daughter (Nicoleta) , who had two daughters, and it was my joy to see
Andrei and "TTB" become the closest of friends. We were invited to a party
at TaTa's home, and arrived to find that Andrei had spent the whole day
helping with the preparations! Sitting outside in the evening ("under the
spreading vine") sampling the varieties of TaTa's home brews was an
experience never to be forgotten!! These moments balanced the harsher
realities of life in Bucharest (especially for the orphans) and for people
like Mihal who painted the St. Nicbolas Icon.
During one of my low patches recently I was talking to the Editor about my failures in Romania, and he
kindly reminded me that success should not be measured in terms of money
or large changes. This certainly persuaded me to be a little less hard on
myself and accept the fact that far from achieving nothing, I have actually
made an impression on the lives of some that I have encountered in Romania
over 13 years e.g. ......helping Paul with the paperwork etc. for his wedding to Magda, and later when applying for accommodation, after
putting them in touch
with a French Charity which helped young mothers (an odd coincidence was the
name of the organiser "Lacremioara" which translates into Lily of the
Valley..a flower especially significant in the lives of my late wife Jessie
and myself!), and finally helping him to get employment with one of the
Companies operating Holiday Liners Mcolae (the subject of the poem in the
previous article) was later unceremoniously and ILLEGALLY evicted from the
Casa and we managed to find a place for him through the "Pestalozzi"
Foundation, and employment (with help from Dan & Nicoleta).
It had been
"touch & go" because with no job they wouldn't accept him at Pestalozzi, and
with no accommodation no one would employ him (that has a somewhat familiar
ring, no?) .... Whilst visiting Nicolae during a later visit I encountered Petre and later when I had
bought my apartment J agreed to allow him to move in. In many ways this was
a very big mistake, but we do not have space in this article to go into the
details. Having accommodated him off and on for approx. 3 years, he is now
working in a hotel in England (LEGALLY but without assistance from me!)
Gristi (my friend of 13 years) had worked in Ireland (where he had an
eye
operation paid for by the Irish helpers) and in Germany from where he was
later invalided back to Romania having very nearly died as a result of a
serious chest problem After a year he was at the desperate stage since only
possible offer of work required the "full gear" in terms of suitable
clothing for a waiter even for interview and/or 1 day trial Cristi had never
accepted money from me (unusual in Romania!) and announced "I'm going on
the boats, you're NOT buying clothes for me!" Possibly selfishly I didn't
want him leaving and INSISTED! We got 2nd hand trousers and went to a tailors
where the two gentlemen were straight out of the TV programme "Never Mind
the Quality Feel the Width! They produced material which matched EXACTLY
and measured him for a waistcoat. With a little show of "MAYBE" they agreed
to have the items ready for next day (when Cristi was due to appear at the
hotel). With brand new wing collar shirt and bow tie he set off looking a
million dollars". Cristi has now been in the New Majestic Hotel for many
years and is the Manager's first choice for any Special events!
Earlier I
mentioned the link between Daniela/Gigi and the Casa. On a later visit they
offered to collect me from the airport and put me up at least overnight to
give me time to sort out my arrangements. When I contacted the Casa, I
discovered that Laurentiu was now back and there was a new Director (the
previous having left with question marks?). Laurentiu was very friendly
with a member of staff who had been promoted to Assistant Director, so we
were invited one evening to this gentleman's home where we ate, talked,
listened to music and drank throughout the night! In the course of various
discussions it was mentioned that I was going in the morning to collect my
violin and a bag from Daniela/Gigi's. When the Ass. Dir.'s wif{: heard that
Daniela was a Doctor involved with the School for Deaf Children she said "Oh
I know Daniela...that's the school I teach". (This city has a
population of two & a half million!?). A short phone call to DIG in the
morning cleared it for Laurentiu to accompany me (because of the connection
and the fact that Gigi wanted to talk shop to Laurentiu about the Mandolin
Group)!
I had been carrying an electronic agenda which wouldn't fit in my
pocket, so Laurentiu offered to put it in his jacket (which, it transpired,
had been given to one of the other boys by the Irish lads, and simply
acquired by Lauretiu!) Later in the day when I asked him for it (they were
on their way to perform somewhere) he suddenly didn't understand English.
"What is jacket?.. Agenda.. what is?".. .etc!? I went upstairs, heartbroken. Nicolae
(already mentioned...and at that time still very young and with very little
English) came up and asked if he could help. He tried to comfort
me and, when I said I needed to go out, he wanted to come with me. Against
all common sense, I refused, and left the Casa alone (to roam the streets of
Bucharest under a full moon!) Luckily I survived, but on another occasion I
was not so fortunate... Andrei suggested "It's my Saint's Day and your
Scottish Day (30 Nov.), so I'll bring a bottle of wine to your room in the
evening and we can celebrate". Since he hadn't met TaTa B by this time we
had no idea where it came from - but 4 or 5 of us duly celebrated! Next day
was Romania's National day and whilst in the city centre, I was "rolled" by
2 sharks pretending to be policemen. I had given a young boy a few Lei to
take his photo (he was carrying the lucky white lamb - "'lucky?!"). They
demanded to know why I was giving him money, and to examine my money, etc.
etc. Right under my nose (almost literally) I lost £65 ( finding later that
the Irish had earlier suffered a similar fate to the tune of several hundred
dollars didn't really console me very much!).
Another interesting little
synchronicity links with Andrei. I have a group of friends who do little
fund raising "daytime soirees" with meat approximately monthly intervals. At
'one concert, earlier this year, the mother of a former private pupil
appeared and said she had a message and a story for me.
She had been in
Vienna to visit her son who is now a professional Ice Skater. One day she
happened on a wonderful group of buskers and decided to ask where they came
from - "Romania" they replied. "Oh, I have a friend who's visited for many
years and now has a flat there" said Vicky. "Where?" they asked.
"Bucharest" she said "but it's such a huge place, it's unlikely you'd know
him, even if you'd been there". "What does he do?" "Well, he was my son's
violin teacher and he has been trying to help some of the orphans - some of
them played instruments". One of the lads gave her a HUGE smile and asked
"Is his name Arthur and does he come from Aberdeen?" Vivky was speechless
and just nodded! "My name's Andrei" the young man added", and would you
believe it if I told you Arthur is a great friend of mine and we first met
in Aberdeen many years ago. I remember he was very upset when his wife died,
so please tell him I hope he is coping with his life, and I hope we can meet
up sometime soon". I can NEVER accept situations like that as pure chance!!!
This year I was in Bucharest for 4 weeks at Easter (my favourite time in
Romania) hoping to sell my large flat and buy a bed-sit or something,
because my original idea of providing a half way house has simply floundered
for many reasons. My original papers, unfortunately, are missing
(lost/stolen?) and I left my copies in Aberdeen!! Now my passport is missing
(AGAIN for the 6th/7th time?) and I'd been warned (after 3 temporary issues)
that I was obviously "not popular!" translation "under Suspicion??" One of
the passports was stolen when I was mugged - entailing an overnight stay in
a top Bucharest Hospital with 4 stitches in my scalp ( no anaesthetic OR
painkillers and ignored all night because I'd also no money - the bag having
been cut off me [lucky??]). One was stolen during a split second's
inattention in a Station in Vienna. Two of them I'm fairly certain were
stolen by a "friend" (of 20 years standing) who also removed £250 from my
account whilst I was in a London Hospital last year...the result of his
doctoring what I was drinking - even whilst in Hospital!!??
Naturally the
future is very unclear - but I will offer you another of the synchronicities
(a double one!) which MAY be a pointer. During the last Saturday of my
Easter visit I was walking along a Boulevard (part of Ceaucescu's "Champs
Elysee") to visit Mariana and family. Her husband, Razvan, was in London,
where I stayed with them a few weeks later.. He is a reporter with Romanian
Radio and we have a long standing friendship, during which time we even
recorded a short interview. Because of problems I'd had with my phone I'd
managed to lose their phone number...but on the Thursday whilst trying to
sort out some old papers at the apartment, I stumbled on their address and
phone number? At the weekend Bucharest is like a ghost town, since most
people try to find their way to the country or the coast. Mariana's flat is
at the end of the Boulevard which is perhaps a couple of miles long, and I
was about half way along when I realised that someone had got off a bus
approximately 30 or so yards to my right and was on a right angled collision
course. I felt like Victor Meldrew..."I don't believe it!?" and like him I
was determined that I wasn't going to change course, or even my pace.
Within
feet of each other I had a slight feeling of recognition and as the young
man walked closely behind me, I turned left to find he'd also turned. "Cosmin!"
"Arthur!" This was someone I'd called a few days earlier, to try to get the
mobile number of a mutual friend. We'd first met when Bogdan, our friend,
took me along to rehearsals of his choir at the Priests' Training College.
Cosmin had acted the part of The Clown (which was his way of hiding his true self). But he had earlier told me of his work with deaf children (and some
adults) and suggested that I might like to experience this. Seeing him that
day looking "serene & fulfilled" I was amazed, and he said "Please, Arthur,
let me know when you are returning because I'd like to show you what we do".
Apart from his weekday work with children, he spends part of Saturday
rehearsing at the Church. Then on Sunday he signs/sings the hymns with the
congregation! "You really would enjoy the Hymn singing", he said, "it's very
uplifting".
Since I'd been getting a little disheartened and disillusioned,
I couldn't help thinking that the timing of my visit to Mariana (which
almost didn't happen), the location, and Cosmin's crossing at that exact time
and place was too big to ignore! Maybe the future lies in helping Cosmin in
his calling...A couple of months later, memories of my previous involvement
with the School for Deaf Children resurfaced and gave me the idea that maybe
that had just been a pointer??!!
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THE ST. NICHOLAS ICON
By Arthur
Bruce
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This icon was painted on a thin panel of wood in 1993 by
Mihal (aged 15 from Tirgoviste, Romania
My first encounter with Mihal was at a summer camp that
year in the Carpathian Mountains. He was selling the icons at $1.00 each
to build up some savings for his future. I regret now that bought only
the one representing Aberdeen's Patron Saint.
Mihal's parents were of Gipsy origin. His grandmother, whom
I later met, had been a teacher of French and English. His father was an
artist who had completed several projects in Tirgoviste and his mother
claimed to be French, with only a slight knowledge of Romanian. Their living
room in their flat was almost entirely decorated with empty beer cans, while
the floor was laid with sheets of newspaper. On one occasion, a friend drove
me to Tirgoviste but refused to allow me to take up an invitation to stay
overnight at this flat, claiming that I would not be alive to be picked up
in the morning!
They later moved to Trei Brazi where I met Grandmother while
they were all living in the home of her mother. Unfortunately, Mihal had a
bicycle accident which left him with what he called "spasmodic amnesia". We
corresponded for several years now have lost contact.
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