- Unloved
- At Peace
- A Lover Lost
- Ma Malédiction
- Shattered Visions
- Shattered Heart
- Because of Her
- No-one Will Hear My Message
- How to Write my Passion
- Who is He?
- Why...?
- To a Polish Beauty - All For You
- Chasing Winds of Love
- If Only
- This is What I Wish For
- Loneliness
- A Nice Guy
- A Selfish Mourning
- Sitting on a Train
- Still Alone
- The Dark Path
- The Ultimate Fear
- Whisper In the Dark
Unloved
I'd gladly give my life,To save a girl from any fate.
My life no longer means,
Anything to me.
All I want is to be loved.
I am cursed to love,
And doomed to not be loved.
My life is misery,
As I go without ever,
Feeling the love of another.
I am of passion,
Yet no one will accept it.
I've loved,
And gone unloved in return.
If any who read this think they would love me,
I really doubt you would.
But one thing I've learned is
That it's better to live a dream,
Than the harsh truth of reality.
I've lived 16 long years,
And my life is dripping slowly down the drain,
I'm slowly,
Very slowly going insane.
I wanna sweep my soul from off the floor,
And it into the sea will I pour.
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At Peace
Love is but a dream,A once true passion,
But since has become
Only an idea to most.
It is now a fallicious perspective,
Mistaken for love,
When truly,
It was lust or infatuation.
I understand love.
I'm one of the last.
One of the few hopeless romantics
Left in existence.
If I could find another,
An equal, to love,
I would be fulfilled and content,
Able to continue in life.
I would be,
At peace at last.
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A Lover Lost
To me, happiness is a myth,A wishful legend of huge proportions.
I have never felt true delight or bliss,
Never been loved, never been adored,
And yet, I have loved, I have cared.
My life goes on unfulfilled,
My love unrequited.
I am a desolate lover,
Lost amidst the souls around me,
Drowning in the frustration from my own emotion,
I am a Lover Lost.
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Ma Malédiction
Je suis amant.J'aime et
Je fais ce sans savoir pourquoi.
Mon amour se porrait changer,
Mais
Il ne cessera jamais.
Cela fait mal,
Et je ne peux pas le changer,
Je désire pouvoir,
Je voudrais me libérer
De ma malédiction.
Je suis un amant perdu.
Ce n'est pas juste.
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Shattered Visions
Shattered visions as desolateAs a now dry lake,
Reflect in the eyes,
Of a well worn soul.
Disillusioned and depressed,
He walks on.
Alone and weary
He walks through
The Lockless Doors in front of him.
Not caring about his fate,
He gives up trying to
Be what he should have been,
If things had gone differently.
Unconfident in himself,
He sits and writes,
Unsure of what matters.
He loves, and yet,
His love lets him down,
Confuses him,
Kills his passion,
Leaving him as solitary
As a soul can be,
Thinking only of
The crashing of the waves.
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Shattered Heart
Each time he gives his heart,He loses it.
Each time he loves,
His heart is shattered.
Still he gets up,
And loves again,
Unconditionally,
Without hope of being loved.
He wonders if ever
He will be truly happy;
If there really is
Someone out there for him,
Someone he can love,
And who will love him back.
Young in appearence,
But aged is his soul,
By his continually breaking heart.
He falls in love,
And it pieces itself together.
And when it is whole,
It breaks again,
Until he falls in love.
In result,
He has become afraid.
Afraid of loving,
Afraid of moving on in case,
In case he is wrong.
He is left with a choice:
He can stay in love with Amber,
He can move on in search of another,
Or he can love the one he has always loved,
And always will.
Anyway, he takes a risk.
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Because of Her
I feel confused,Not knowing how to feel,
Or what to think.
Unable to distinguish
What my heart is telling me.
I'd like to move away,
And yet I'd like to stay.
Do I love
Like the way I claim to,
Or am I lying to myself?
Do I love her,
Or do I love another?
Do I love at all?
Am I as insecure as I think,
Or should I begin to think
Like her.
My feelings are changing,
And in my mind a war is waging:-
Am I
Should I
Do I
Know what to ask,
Or what to say?
Has she
Ever
Known how
I feel, or may
She never know,
But now,
I feel I should tell her.
But what would I say?
No, I can't find the way
To where her heart does lay,
And still I carry on
Unsure where I'm coming from,
Onto oblivion,
Because of her.
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No-one Will Hear My Message
I hear people,Shouting, calling,
Laughing, playing,
Crying, moaning.
I sing them a message,
A message of love.
But no-on hears my message,
No-one knows except me,
That love is for the taking,
And hearts aren't meant for breaking.
That I am in love,
That my spirit truly soars above.
And now I'm truly free,
Because I have found the key.
But no-one is listening.
No-one cares.
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How to write my Passion
How can I tell you,What I am feeling now?
There is an emotion in my soul
That I need to let out.
But how to write a scream,
A roar?
How to write passion
And rage,
Emotions not just burning,
Not just raging,
More than that.
More than just uncontrollable,
More than all-chaotic,
More power ful than omnipotent
with effects to multiples of infinity.
I tears at me,
Rips my spirit.
It howls like a song,
More piercing than a banshee.
It turns me outside in.
It is love,
But where is it?
How to write it?
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Who is He?
Who is he, who walksIn the darkness of the night?
Who is he, who sits alone,
Dreaming under the stars?
Who is he, who listens,
To the air and waves as one?
Who is he, who would love you,
Of his own volition, without reason?
Who is he, who weeps,
Silently in the rain,
Lonely for love?
I am.
I walk in the darkness of the night.
I sit alone,
Dreaming under the stars.
I listen to the air and waves as one.
I would love you and,
I cry for your love.
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Why...?
I love you,Can't you see that?
Can't you see
That nothing else really matters?
That we should have been,
Could have been,
Would have been
If it weren't for fate?
Why don't you understand?
I know I want you,
Know I need you,
Know I love you.
Oh! why can't we be,
The way we want to be,
The lovers that we might be?
How cruel can life be,
That it would do this to me,
That to love you I'm not free?
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To a Polish Beauty - All For You
Would you kiss me,If I talked to you some more?
Would you hold me,
If I stayed close to you?
Would you love me,
If every word I write,
Every word I speak,
If every part of my heart I open,
Is all for you?
If not now, then one day,
Perhaps?
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Chasing Winds of Love
Looking all around me,At the people that I know,
Over friends and family,
Over all I see the winds of love blow,
Over everyone except me.
Those winds I often chase,
But all I find is pain,
And as I feel the teas run down my face,
I think of all the times I've waited,
And no-one's ever came.
Love is all I want, all I need,
And I see a girl, fall for her,
And foolishly, I let hope feed
My heart, and then as she observes,
I feel my spirit bleed.
It doesn't stop, this hurt,
Other than love it's all I know, all I feel.
Love isn't worth as much as dirt,
It isn't there, it isn't real.
I say this, but I know I lie,
Because it's me, it's who I am,
It's a law I can never defy,
And yes, I give a damn,
Because my love will never die.
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If Only
If only you knew.If only you knew what hid inside my soul.
If only you knew who I truly am.
I am a man with an undiscovered passion.
My love unclaimed and solidary.
My emotion fuels me, yet it limits me.
My emotions are powerful, intense and passionate,
Controlled only by my sorrow for that which I have never had.
I need love. I feel a burning desire to pour my heart into the very
essence of an equal: a girl of passion and emotion, with a need of
love; someone to hold and hold and never let go;
Someone to understand me and everything I feel.
To me, love isn't how I feel, it's how I am.
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This is What I Wish For
Sacred words,Whispered in a lover's ear.
Kisses long and passionate
Felt through eternity.
Tears lost
For joy an happiness unending.
Holding each other,
Relentlessly,
Unwilling to let go.
Life forever
With one another.
This is what I wish for.
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Loneliness
Loneliness, the tortuous agony that goes on unending,Like the continual running of the sands.
Occasional mirages of happiness appear,
In the form of false relationships,
Seeming loving.
Mirages, that only increase the pain,
Withering my soul away into nothingness.
Then, when there is nothing left,
What life do I have left?
No purpose, no contentedness,
No feelings at all.
Just the emptiness that is the abyss
Where my heart used to be.
No longer alive,
Barely existent,
Until I destroy my own existence,
Seeing nothing left for me to know
But the sorrow I have always know.
Loneliness - the disease more deadly
Than death itself,
Because death does not destroy the soul,
Only releases it.
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A Nice Guy
This world, it drives me mad.It knocks me down,
It pulls me up,
And then it throws me all about.
It rips my guts,
It stabs my heart,
And now my head is totally fucked.
You give me friends,
You take my love,
And then you go and tear it up.
I don't give a shit anymore,
You can all fuck off and go to hell,
Because I'm sick of answering to your bell.
Yes, now I'm pissed off,
Life isn't fair-
I lay all of my emotions bare,
And get nothing for it except this hurt,
Whilst you lie and cheat, and rub my face in dirt.
So why should I sit and take it still?
I'll tell you-
Because I'm a nice guy, and I feel,
That I have no other choice.
But I'm sick of being a nice guy,
Of listening to your voices,
Of having to make your choices.
I wish I was an arsehole,
A bastard that kicked heads in.
Someone who does the things I wouldn't do,
Who gets the girl,
And has the cash,
Oh God, I wish I wasn't me!
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A Selfish Mourning
Slowly drifting, I mourn for myself.Silently, I notice the others
That weep inside -
The same as I.
They mourn for love,
For loss,
For what they thought they had once,
But now find they may never have.
They mourn because they alone feel their pain,
Not always realising that others feel the same.
It is a selfish mourning
That causes them to close their hearts completely,
Or like me - leave them completely open.
Some hide their souls away,
Others, like me,
Give theirs to any willing to stay.
One extreme or the other -
That is their only choice.
Unable to resolve their hurt,
They can no longer find the balance,
Hoping only that their pain is stopped,
Either by finding the right one;
Or by finding peace in death.
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Sitting On A Train
I'm sitting on the train,Feeling it shuddering,
As I think about you.
The smile on your face,
The halos in your eyes,
The ringing in your voice
That sounds out when you talk to me.
I miss the way things used to be,
The smoke-filled pubs we sat in,
The taste of your kisses,
(They were of vodka-Red Square).
Often times we sang together,
(Our song was "Under the Bridge"),
Almost always held each other,
(I remember the softness of your skin),
We always used to be together,
(Even though you were not seeing me).
My love for you has never died,
(Even now, the pain, the tears, still fill my eyes),
You're the one I always wanted,
(And the one I never had)
The one I always needed,
(And the one that drives me mad).
You're still the one for me,
(With you right now I know I should be),
And although you'll never feel the same,
If you ever need me,
Then just call out my name.
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Still Alone
A throaty cough echos through the monitor lit room:The first signs of winter creeping in.
Along with winter come the worst of existence:
The cold weather, illness, depression.
Nigh is the time to be holding a loved one:
Staying warm and comforted in their arms.
But there are many like me,
Alone, drifting:
Not homeless, but with a heart that has no home.
I sit in a room,
Seeing faces everywhere,
Yet still I feel alone:
No-one knows me.
Not far from where I sit are my friends,
Yet still I feel alone:
No-one loves me.
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The Dark Path
Slowly I wander down a hall,Hearing only my own footsteps.
Darkness falls in here,
As I follow the Dark Path in my mind.
No words can easily describe this place,
Except to say that it is black,
Corrupted by something deep and forboding in my soul.
No longer does the Angel in me dominate
In a constant struggle between that and my demon.
The demon makes itself apparent.
The demon thrives on my pain,
Becoming all the more powerful.
And now all my desires,
My dark impulses become stronger,
And I struggle to resist.
Hence now I walk the dark path.
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The Ultimate Fear
Loneliness, a deathless agony,Empty, like death,
But a pain more brutalising than any other.
Fate, the source of hurt,
Directing on the one.
The one becomes a ghost,
Not physically, nor spiritually,
But emotionally.
Chaos and fury burn in his mind.
Winds of fear wreak havoc,
The fear of no change.
The ultimate fear.
The fear that the one will stay alone.
The pattern of existance that doesn't seem to fade.
All that sems to fade is purpose,
A reason for existance.
Is it there,
Or isn't it?
The one can only wait.
Time passes.
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Whisper In The Dark
Take me with you,My Whisper In The Dark,
Break these mortal chains,
Free me from the light.
My soul is trapped,
Cramped up in this
Dying prison-
It can't fly freely into night,
It can't find a way
Away from the light.
This life,
This light is blinding,
And I can't close my eyes,
It's burning,
I need you to chill me
My Whisper In The Dark.
Untie me,
Let me die,
Crack open the darkness,
Let me in.
Come for me,
Comfort me,
My angel of death
Come, heed my call.
I won't fight, I will
Take this final fall.
I lie waiting,
For you to whisper
Darkness in my heart.
Take me now,
My Whisper In The Dark.
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